The knowledge of Christ requires not an intellectual soul but a contemplative soul.
– Evagrius of Pontus, Gnostic Centuries
This is back when “gnostic” was an acceptable adjective for Christians. Still is, in my opinion. You can find his writings here.
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Knowledge is excellent, for it cooperates with prayer to awaken the intellectual power of the mind to contemplation of divine knowledge.
We meditate and focus upon a great many things. Perhaps if what we focus on is indeed holy (other), then our outcome will be purer.
Such is the life of the ‘g’nostic.
I would encourage you to read Evagrius.